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All I ever wanted

was a you and me

i just want to say,
8 hour phone conversations > world.
I'm honestly in a happy place right now,
minus the whole D. being a douche.
I don't even want him as a friend anymore.
I don't know why i bother with him.
oh and i love my babyyyyyyy <3

And I don't know why

I don't know why, I fight for you this way.


So, he's losing intrest,
weeeeeeee.
finally when i thought i was happy,
i get fucked over again
and i dont know why i keep fighting for this
i knew it would end,
and i knew i would end up the way i am,
depressed and confused.
but i keep going for it,
i guess love really is blind
because i'm so blinded by this shit, that i dont care about what my outcomes are.
i hate it.,

Consider me destroyed

I don't know how to act, cause I lost my head

weeeeee, fucking weeeeeeeee.
New step in the cycle.
He's interested once again.
My guard was up for a good two seconds,
and he's broken through it once again.
I don't know whats with him, or why he's like that,
but it sucks, cause I know i'm going to get hurt again.
but strangely, I don't care?
Is that weird?
Should I care? Cause, really I don't.
I'm actually happy for once,
where I am in life.
I can honestly say I'm truly happy,
besides some slight paranoia and some slight confusion.
Lost a 'friend' along the way too,
but its okay,
people of the past, don't make it to the present for a reason.
But, like I said, I'm actually happy.
Days are sunnier,
colors are brigheter,
i'm laughing harder,
as cliche as that probably sounds.

One Look.

One look,
and the walls collapse.
One look,
and my heart begins to crash.
You’ve made me, just to break me.
A pawn in your silly sadistic little game,
just for the pure amusement, there’s nothing to gain.
One look,
loss of feeling.
One look,
scars revealing, the words I’ve put to rest.
Your words break the skin,
Unspoken truths scream, tearing apart at the seams,
The nightmares, were once dreams.
One look,
and I’m alive.
One look,
and I want to cry.
Heartbreakingly beautiful, in every way.
You smile again, making me miss my dear friend.
Lovers to strangers, strangers to friends, repeat cycle, it never ends.
One look,
baby, I’m hooked.




ugh, i'm so fucked up and love struck at the same time,
its a never ending cycle with us.
strangers-friends-lovers-strangers-aquantences-ignorance-friends-lovers-strangers.
it doesn't end, and its driving me insane.

Spend some time,

with an old friend

I have something to talk about, my dears.
Spending time, with an old friend, getting to know him better.
The truth, it stung a little, but i'm okay with it,
because well its closure,
he wasn't who i thought he was, but thats okay, because i was in a different state of mind,
i was infatuated with who i thought he was.
and i'm okay with the fact that i wasted 6 months,
because i finally know the truth.