I'm so sick and tired

of being sick and tired.
Friends? what the fuck are real friends? I thought I knew, boy was I wrong.
People prove to be all the same, only caring about whats best for them, and not whats best for others, they're coniving, and back stabbing, and if they feel threatened, they'll team up.
its like a fucking jungle, and i'm so sick of being the one leaving a pack, because i'm a threat, and unlike majority of the people in the world, i can think for myself, i don't need a goddamn leader. Well I guess thats highschool for you, people would rarther pretend to be someone they're not to fit into a group, than be themselves out of fear of being judged. I guess thats where I stand alone, and probably the reason, I've dropped all my friends. I haven't been myself, and I blame my school and my depression, though i probably would've outgrown my friends anyway.
Its sort of nice, knowing I only have one true friend, cause in a sense, I now know, those who cared, and those who were never really there. Great to know I've wasted around 9 years of my life. I don't blame my mom for hating this town now, or the people in it. There really is no originality left in the world. I've learned the hard way, that people only care about saving your own ass.