Cause when I'm with him,

I am thinking of you,

why can't i let you go?
I feel like i'm spinning out of control.
I thought i was strong enough, I guess I'm too weak.
its pitiful. I still love that fucking boy and I can't stand it.
He's all I thought about today, and it scares me.
I really thought I was over this infatuation.
and then there are the people, i wish i did love,
for example, f. he's sweet, and he still loves me and wants me back,
but i just can't love him, and i HATE myself for it.
He deserves alot better.
I've never felt to pathetic in my life.
I wish I never joined this world,
I wish I never met him.
I wish I wasn't me.
He meant the world to me,
how could i have so stupid as to make him my everyting?
What the fuck was I thinking?
I'm so fucking naive.
I don't know whats going on with me.
I don't know anything anymore.
Who I love,
What I like,
What I don't like.
Who I'm friends with
Who I'm not friends with.
the world is spinning so fast, time is flying
and I don't have the time to breathe.
All I know is
music has saved me yet again,
thank god.
and not only music yet again,
but yet again the Jonas Brothers have come to the rescue with
Love is on its way.
and thank god for it.
I've nearly snapped completely out of my depression,
though this helps too.